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God Only, You Can Trust
December 26
Peter answered and said unto him, Though all men shall be offended because of thee, yet will I never be offended. (Matthew 26:33)
“Why,” cries one, “this is no promise of God.” Just so, but it was a promise of man, and therefore it came to nothing. Peter thought that he was saying what he should assuredly carry out; but a promise which has no better foundation than a human resolve will fall to the ground. No sooner did temptations arise than Peter denied his Master and used oaths to confirm his denial.
What is man’s word? An earthen pot broken with a stroke. What is your own resolve? A blossom, which, with God’s care, may come to fruit, but which, left to itself, will fall to the ground with the first wind that moves the bough.
On man’s word hang only what it will bear.
On thine own resolve depend not at all.
On the promise of thy God hang time and eternity, this world and the next, thine all and the all of all thy beloved ones.
This volume is a checkbook for believers, and this page is meant as a warning as to what bank they draw upon and whose signature they accept. Rely upon Jesus without limit. Trust not thyself nor any horn of woman, beyond due bounds; but trust thou only and wholly in the Lord.
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Afflictions, But No Broken Bones
December 19
He keepeth all his bones; not one of them is broken. (Psalm 34:20)
This promise by the context is referred to the much afflicted righteous man: “Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivereth him out of them all.” He may suffer skin wounds and flesh wounds, but no great harm shall be done; “not a bone of him shall be broken.”
This is great comfort to a tried child of God, and comfort which I dare accept; for up to this hour I have suffered no real damage from my many afflictions. I have neither lost faith, nor hope, nor love. Nay so far from losing these bones of character, they have gained in strength and energy. I have more knowledge, more experience, more patience, more stability than I had before the trials came. Not even my joy has been destroyed. Many a bruise have I had by sickness, bereavement, depression, slander, and opposition; but the bruise has healed, and there has been no compound fracture of a bone, not even a simple one. The reason is not far to seek. If we trust in the Lord, He keeps all our bones; and if He keeps them, we may be sure that not one of them is broken.
Come, my heart, do not sorrow. Thou art smarting, but there are no bones broken. Endure hardness and bid defiance to fear.
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Pardon and Forgiveness
November 24
He will not always chide: neither will he keep his anger for ever. (Psalm 103:9)
He will chide sometimes, or He would not be a wise Father for such poor, erring children as we are. His chiding is very painful to those who are true, because they feel how sadly they deserve it and how wrong it is on their part to grieve Him. We know what this chiding means, and we bow before the Lord, mourning that we should cause Him to be angry with us.
But what a comfort we find in these lines! “Not always” will He chide. If we repent and turn to Him with hearts broken for sin and broken from sin, He will smile upon us at once. It is no pleasure to Him to turn a frowning face toward those whom He loves with all His heart: it is His joy that our joy should be full.
Come, let us seek His face. There is no reason for despair, nor even for despondency. Let us love a chiding God, and before long we shall sing, “Thine anger is turned away, and thou comfortest me.” Be gone, ye dark forebodings, ye ravens of the soul! Come in, ye humble hopes and grateful memories, ye doves of the heart! He who pardoned us long ago as a judge will again forgive us as a father, and we shall rejoice in His sweet, unchanging love.
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Thorough Cleansing
October 30
Then will I sprinkle clean water upon you, and ye shall be clean: from all your filthiness, and from all your idols, will I cleanse you. (Ezekiel 36:25)
What an exceeding joy is this! He who has purified us with the blood of Jesus will also cleanse us by the water of the Holy Spirit. God hath said it, and so it must be, “Ye shall be clean.” Lord, we feel and mourn our uncleanness, and it is cheering to be assured by Thine own mouth that we shall be clean. Oh, that Thou wouldst make a speedy work of it!
He will deliver us from our worst sins. The uprisings of unbelief and the deceitful lusts which war against the soul, the vile thoughts of pride, and the suggestions of Satan to blaspheme the sacred name-all these shall be so purged away as never to return.
He will also cleanse us from all our idols, whether of gold or of clay: our impure loves and our excessive love of that which in itself is pure. That which we have idolized shall either be broken from us or we shall be broken off from it.
It is God who speaks of what He Himself will do. Therefore is this word established and sure, and we may boldly look for that which it guarantees to us. Cleansing is a covenant blessing, and the covenant is ordered in all things and sure.
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Immediate Freedom
June 2
For now will I break his yoke from off thee, and will burst thy bonds in sunder. (Nahum 1:13)
The Assyrian was allowed for a season to oppress the Lord’s people, but there came a time for his power to be broken. So, many a heart is held in bondage by Satan and frets sorely under the yoke. Oh, that to such prisoners of hope the word of the Lord may come at once, according to the text, “Now will I break his yoke from off thee, and will burst thy bonds in sunder!”
See! The Lord promises a present deliverance. “Now will I break his yoke from off thee.” Believe for immediate freedom, and according to thy faith so shall it be unto thee at this very hour. When God saith “now,” let no man say “tomorrow.”
See how complete the rescue is to be; for the yoke is not to be removed but broken; and the bonds are not to be untied but burst asunder. Here is a display of divine force which guarantees that the oppressor shall not return. His yoke is broken, we cannot again be bowed down by its weight. His bonds, are burst asunder, they can no longer hold us. Oh, to believe in Jesus for complete and everlasting emancipation! “If the Son shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.” Come, Lord, and set free Thy captives, according to Thy Word.
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Afflictions, But No Broken Bones
December 19
He keepeth all his bones; not one of them is broken. (Psalm 34:20)
This promise by the context is referred to the much afflicted righteous man: “Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivereth him out of them all.” He may suffer skin wounds and flesh wounds, but no great harm shall be done; “not a bone of him shall be broken.”
This is great comfort to a tried child of God, and comfort which I dare accept; for up to this hour I have suffered no real damage from my many afflictions. I have neither lost faith, nor hope, nor love. Nay so far from losing these bones of character, they have gained in strength and energy. I have more knowledge, more experience, more patience, more stability than I had before the trials came. Not even my joy has been destroyed. Many a bruise have I had by sickness, bereavement, depression, slander, and opposition; but the bruise has healed, and there has been no compound fracture of a bone, not even a simple one. The reason is not far to seek. If we trust in the Lord, He keeps all our bones; and if He keeps them, we may be sure that not one of them is broken.
Come, my heart, do not sorrow. Thou art smarting, but there are no bones broken. Endure hardness and bid defiance to fear.
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He Routs Our Enemy
July 29
He hath cast out thine enemy. (Zephaniah 3:15)
What a casting out was that! Satan has lost his throne in our nature even as he lost his seat in heaven. Our Lord Jesus has destroyed the enemy’s reigning power over us. He may worry us, but he cannot claim us as his own. His bonds are no longer upon our spirits: the Son has made us free, and we are free indeed.
Still is the archenemy the accuser of the brethren; but even from this position our Lord has driven him. Our Advocate silences our accuser. The Lord rebukes our enemies and pleads the causes of our soul, so that no harm comes of all the devil’s revilings.
As a tempter, the evil spirit still assails us and insinuates himself into our minds; but thence also is he cast out as to his former preeminence. He wriggles about like a serpent, but he cannot rule like a sovereign. He hurls in blasphemous thoughts when he has opportunity; but what a relief it is when he is told to be quiet and is made to slink off like a whipped cur! Lord, do this for any who are at this time worried and wearied by his barkings. Cast out their enemy, and be Thou glorious in their eyes. Thou hast cast him down; Lord, cast him out. Oh, that Thou wouldst banish him from the world!
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I’ve been dealing with being physically and mentally drained for a few days because of some meds for fibromyalgia and for bone spurs on my spine. After a 6 hour nap yesterday I finally feel like I’m back on an even keel today, so I thought I would try to spark my creativity by taking Terry’s lead, from http://terry1954.wordpress.com/ , using a writing prompt to boost my imagination. She gets the writing prompts from Picture it & write or  Ermiliablog, and I thank all of these blogs for sharing this picture with me. So here it goes…
It had been years since Charity had been back to her hometown, but it was time now to face her past and the sin that had held her captive. She must go back to the beginning, and just a few moments in her mother’s home looking at old photo albums was enough to trigger many memories, both good and bad. Now driving down to the lake, she hoped that some of those memories would explain to her where she went wrong. Not much had changed except the lake seeming to take back some of the land that surrounded it, a result of the Spring storms that inundated the region, pouring down flood inducing rains for days. Mom had said the flood had reached over the top of the old dock, crumbling it like a pile of matchsticks. The city council had decided not to rebuild it, since there was a new pier available at the new Marina just a mile around the lake from the old pier. Pulling into the Marina, Charity marveled at the beauty that had been put into its creation. Beautiful oaks grew to each side of the entrance, giving shade to the long drive into the Marina. A variety of flowers stood like a welcoming committee as they lined the street under the shade of the oaks. As Charity entered the gate, she was greeted by a security guard, who welcomed her to the Marina, and made small talk about the weather today, and how he hoped she enjoyed her time at the new Marina. After collecting her five dollar parking fee, the security guard gave her a receipt, a pamplet of services offered and planned activities of the day, and waved her on. He reminded Charity of a programmed robot, showing no emotion, and repeating the same mantra over and over.
Back in her childhood days, Charity would not be going to a marina on a Sunday. For years every Sunday she would go with her parents to the little church just a few miles south of the new Marina. She remembered how much she loved Sundays back then, the singing, people praising God together, and a sermon from Pastor Smith that left each person meditating on their relationship with Jesus Christ. The old church had been a place of solace, of love, and a beautiful place filled with peace. Peace…that is what Charity needed now. Life had taken its toll on her, and nothing in her life brought peace. After she checked out the new Marina, Charity decided to drive around the lake to the old church and see if she could make the evening service at least.
Walking around the Marina, Charity marveled at the beautiful, white marble columns that adorned the entrances of the club house. There was everything a community could want at this marina, from a large resteraunt, to a conciearge to fulfill your every need. There was an 18 hole state-of-the-art golf course to the north of the main building, a series of boating docks and a pier lined with old fashioned street lights reaching out into the large lake. One dock was lined with paddle boats and canoes for rent. The other docks were lined with ski boats, family cruisers, speed boats, pontoons, and bass fishing boats, all just waiting for the owners to take them out on the lake. It looked like there were many families, fishermen, and water skiers preparing to make excursions out on the lake for the day. Charity wondered about why none appeared to have come from a church service, none were in church clothing, and all seemed to be more involved in family and friend activities, and the seeking of worldly enjoyment than on giving any acknowledgement to the Maker of this day and of the creation they were about to enjoy. This was quite different from when Charity was a child, because it was stressed that this day was the Lord’s and a day of rest. Church would have been a families first destination, and their last destination as well. In between there might be a picnic at the lake or a family dinner at home, but to spend the whole day on the lake was not something that was even considered for a Sunday. Although this way of spending a Sunday was common in the city, Charity began to wonder what caused this change here in the small town she loved. Were there even churches in the community anymore, or had the churches changed their day or times of worship to allow this activity? She began to wonder more about the little church around the lake where she had attended as a child. Looking at her watch, Charity decided a quick lunch and tour of the clubhouse would allow her time to drive to the church, and make it just in time for the evening service.
An unfriendly hostess, led Charity across the diningroom to a table by the main row of windows. She mentioned that this was the area the mayor liked to sit in the most, because he was able to see money rolling into the town’s bank account. Charity was amazed at how materialistic that thought was, and a feeling of nausea filled her stomach. One of the things that had made her leave the big city was the materialistic attitude that seemed to permeate the rude behavior of soceity there. No one seemed to care about their neighbor, only how they could take advantage of them. Consideration, compassion and respect were absent for the most part, and because they were missing the feeling of community and neighborhood were absent as well. After perusing the menu, whistling at the high prices, Charity settled for a simple bowl of New England Clam Chowder, the House Roll, and a Chef Salad for lunch. Bowing her head, Charity gave thanks, not only for the food but for being back in a community where God was still put first. As she raised her head, Charity realized that many eyes were upon her, as if she was doing something unusual. She looked around the diningroom and realized she was the only one who seemed to be bowing their head in prayer before their meal. That nauseated pit in her stomach began to grow even more. Finishing up her food, paying her check, Charity quickly walked around the Club House, took in the Gift Shop, the Golf Pro Shop, the Rental Desk, and perused the rack of pamplets of things to do at the Marina and in the area. Taking a few, Charity walked to her car, stopping long enough to take in one more view of the whole Marina, before she got in and drove back through the oak and flowered lined entrance.  It seemed that this visit to the Marina had only left a larger feeling of loss and anxiety in her. Where was the peace that she had come back to her hometown to find? Charity was beginning to wonder what had happened to the hometown she remembered.
At least the gravel road leading to her old church had not changed, and the forest that lined part of the road were still in tack. Charity remembered hunting mushrooms in this forest, and gathering raspberries and blackberries from the bushes that grew at the edge of trees. She always came back with enough for Mom to make pies for Sunday dinner, along with pockets full to snack on herself. Mom always laughed at the stains of red and purple on Charity’s face, that told the truth about how many berries had actually been eaten as she picked them from the bushes. A sense of impending peace filled Charity’s soul, only to be shattered by reality a few moments later. Coming into the clearing of the parking area near the bridge that led to the little chapel of her youth, Charity stared in disbelief. Her childhood memories of the little church were battling with the reality that lay before her eyes at this very moment.
The lake had all but swallowed up the land the little church set upon, and the bridge that once lay over a small creek set over a river of water from the lake that now surrounded the church, leaving a little island of land, with the church perched on the edge of it. Where the bridge had once gleamed of white washed boards lining it, was now nothing but old damaged wood with rusty nails, and missing boards. The path that once had been lined in beautiful wild flowers, was now lined with mud and cracked dry dirt in places. The once well-kept lawn of the church grew wild with grass, weeds, and brush. Only a few scraggly trees still stood near the little chapel, that looked like it would fall apart should a slight wind blow against it. Not a drop of white paint had graced the outside of the church in years, and it was obvious that the community had let it fall into disrepair for some time. At least the steeple was still on top, and the little metal cross that had been made by the local blacksmith as a gift to the church, still stood, watching over the lake side of the church. As Charity looked across the lake beside the church, the glow of the gleaming white structures of the Marina spoke of where the community’s focus had been. It wasn’t on God anymore, not on his church, but on the materialistic enjoyment of the worldly things. Charity’s heart sank even more.
Charity was thankful that she had decided to wear tennis shoes this morning, especially when she saw what she would have to traverse to get to the little church building. There were sticker bushes lining the broken and missing boards of the path to the bridge. Rusty nails stuck out of the walkway, and the rail across the bridge. Near the water’s edge the mud was slimy and thick, but the ground around the little island still appeared dry and cracked, much like her soul had felt for the past few months since losing the one man she had loved to a car accident, and then suffering a miscarriage just days later. These losses had left her feeling empty, dry of the ability to shed tears, and as if her heart was cracked beyond repair. Somehow this old church and its surroundings spoke with empathy to her very being. Charity gently opened the creaking door at the front of the church, and cleared the cobwebs that hung like spooky lace curtains inside the room. She stopped a moment at the greeter’s stand that still stood by the center entrance to the church sanctuary. Blowing dust off the visitor’s book, and flipping through the pages, Charity noticed that there were fewer and fewer entries in the book over the last decade and a half, until finally there were no more in the last 4 years. A sadness filled her soul, as she realized this book marked the last heartbeats of the little chapel. A tear dropped upon the now graying silk of the book’s cover, as Charity mournfully closed it. Walking into the sanctuary, Charity noticed that the heart of the church, although dingy, filled with cobwebs and aging broken pews, still held a warmth to it. It was obvious that someone had been in there in the last few years, as there were areas on the velvet covered altars that were free of dust. The shapes of elbows and knees impressed upon the knee rest and along the top of the altar spoke of someone’s journey to the church to pray. Charity dusted off a seat in a pew near the altar where the prints were and she sat. Could these be the prints of someone hurting like her? Were they the prints of a parent remembering a child who was loss, or a wife mourning the loss of a husband? In her heart she asked the Lord to give peace to the person who had traveled there to pray, and seek peace in their stormy life.
Leaning back, Charity’s memories took over. She could hear the old piano playing, and a small choir of usually 7 singing…”Softly and tenderly, Jesus is calling. Calling for you and for me. Here on the portals he’s waiting and watching, Watching for you and for me.” Charity heard herself join in on the chorus of the old prayer hymn…”Come home, come home. Ye who are weary come home. Earnestly, tenderly, Jesus is calling, Calling ‘O sinner, come home.”  Tears streamed down her eyes, as Charity felt drawn to the alter, to fill in the empty impressions with her own knees and elbows. Prayer crept for her lips, as she asked for healing for her broken heart, and peace for her weary soul. An arm filled with love and warmth reached around her shoulder, and a soft prayer was being raised beside her, for a daughter who had been lost to the world, but now had come home. There was a thankfulness for many prayers finally answered for the child, and another prayer for healing and peace, then a simple amen to close it out. Teardrops and another set of imprints of one handprint and two more knees joined the other imprints on the altar. As Charity looked up, the tears flowed even more, as she realized it was her mother who had made those original imprints on the altar. It was her mother who had come weekly on Sunday to pray for a loss child, and ask the Lord to bring her home. It had been her mother who asked God to bring peace and comfort to a child who had suffered loss. It was Charity’s mother, whom she had left alone in her hometown over 15 years ago, after her father had passed on, who had faithfully held onto her child in love, hope, and prayer. Tears streamed faster down two faces now, as the welcoming of a Prodigal Child now happened.  This was not the superficial one that they had shared earlier, but the welcome that God always has for his child who has been lost, the welcome of a parent who had poured out prayer to a Heavenly Father for a child that they shared concern for. This was the warm welcome and celebration that one who has found their way home longs for, and it was Charity’s to treasure forever. As the two women, old and young, walked arm and arm out of the rugged, empty chapel, out into the evening, Charity and her mother turned for a moment to look at the church that brought them back together. The glow of the sunset, gleamed like candles in the dusty windows, and at the top, the sun gleemed off of the metal cross, making it shine with golden warmth. Charity felt the peace she had longed for bubble over inside her, and knew that although the church had been abandoned and broken down, God had not abandoned it, nor had he abandoned her.

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The night before last I had a harrowing experience. All day on Tuesday I had felt a growing pressure in my chest, and thought I was having problems with my asthma. During the day I had to use my inhaler 3 different times just to get some air in my lungs. I didn’t think much of it, except…”Hmm…wonder if I’m catching a chest cold?” I’ve been very susceptible to catching colds, viruses, strep, and flus since I was a child, but even more as I get older and since they diagnosed me with Epstein-Barre Syndrom brought on by a 3-month case of Bronchitus. Well, the day wore on with the feeling of pressure in my chest, but it didn’t seem to get worse, or better at all. Then about 11:15 p.m., while sitting on my bed checking emails, I suddenly felt like something gripped my heart and was twisting it violently. Pain wracked my back in the center between my shoulder blades, and a sharp pain radiated down the inside of my left arm to my elbow. I thought first it was a catch in my back and so I stood up to stretch and found myself falling back to my bed, dizzy, and doubled up in excruciating pain. I’d never in my life felt anything like this,and lay there clutching my chest crying and not able to talk because I couldn’t breathe. My youngest daughter heard me fall and came running into the room, and she looked frightened. Even in extreme pain the mother in me kicked in, and at that moment all I could think is to tell her to pray, and then instead of screaming in pain, force myself to just say “Lord Jesus, help me please!” Then my husband, who had been asleep for over 3 hours, woke to my cries and praying, and he didn’t wake up in a good mood. Instead he woke up in a very grumpy mood, raising his voice and saying…”Well…what do you want me to do for you?!” This only added to my frustration and anguish. Couldn’t he see that I was clinching my heart and writhing in pain? Couldn’t he hear my cries to Jesus for help? Didn’t he listen to my daughter telling him what was going on? I was in shock, heartbroken, and the tears flowed even more. I could understand him being upset about being woken up…if it was for a foolish reason, but for his wife lieing there possibly dieing…really?! Then he added another blow with his question…”Do I need to take you to the hospital?” It wasn’t said with compassion, but more like he was irritated that he might have to? Then I became irritated with him as well. Was I going to have to tell him what to do? I could barely say, Help me Jesus, and this man wanted me to tell him how to help me! To say I was in shock is mild, because in my pain-racked, worried mind, I couldn’t believe this man who had taken first aid training in the past, didn’t seem to know what to do, nor had the compassion to do it! I now felt like Satan was literally attacking me, not only through the pain, but through the hurtful attitudes and words. I guess he didn’t realize how serious it was until he tried to stand me up to go to the hospital and the dizziness and pain drove me back down onto the bed once more. He finally realized he needed to call 9-1-1. The rest is a blur of paramedics, ambulance ride, shaking uncontrollably, pain, bumpy roads, oxygen mask, needles sticking me, xrays, EKGs, Nitroglycerin given to me, more needles, 2  I.V.s  stuck in me, lots of questions, no sleep and no food or drink for 24 hours, nice nurses, rude nurses, doctors who didn’t seem to have a clue, one doctor that was in denial about her responsibility for my high cholesterol not being treated after 4 years (I had been a patient of hers), more words that came uncaringly from my husband (He thought he was showing that he understood by calling attention to himself…He picked the wrong words to do it), confusing information from doctors with a diagnosis that didn’t match what they were saying about test results, and finally after an overnight stay that made me think “this is what Hell must be like” I finally was let go home with the arrival of a male nurse with a to-go-cup of ice water, saying “Surprise! here is your last cup of ice water in this hospital!” My thought at that moment…”Yeah, and since it is also the only glass a water that I’ve been given in 24 hours should I be thankful?” Needless to say, I left with a migraine and still having chest pain and constriction, starving, so thirsty my lips were cracking, and a broken heart from unnecessary attitudes and words. I cried all the way home…that is silently cried because the tears flowed but I couldn’t make a sound. In my heart all I could pray was…”Why, Lord?” Stopping to pick up my prescriptions only made things worse, as we found out the nurse did not call in the doctor’s prescription like she said she did when we left. Then frustration grew when my husband said, “What a pain this all is!”  Words said…argument…appetite ruined from the nausea that comes from anger, and all I wanted to do was go home, crawl in bed and cry. Why, Lord? Did I deserve this? We get home, and I carry in everything, no help, no one making sure I didn’t fall, no compassion at all. Lord, isn’t there anything that can turn this around now? I made it up the stairs to my bedroom, and as I sat down on the bed, over on my keyboard something caught my eye. It was a poem I had written in 2005 when I first started going through these health issues. I sat down and read it, and yes, the tears began to flow even more. Prayer, apologies, communication, hugs and a broken heart is mended. Here is that poem…
HE CAN HEAL MY HEART
By:Â Bonita L. Ledzius…copyright 2005
If He can control the wind and the waves,
He can change my life.
If He can make the blind see and lame walk,
He can heal my heart.
If Christ can resurrect the dead,
Feed the multitude with fish and bread,
If Christ can overcome Satan’s darts,
He can heal my heart.
If He can face the cross alone,
He can see my fear.
If He can face the cold, dark tomb,
He can hold me near.
If Christ can overcome the grave,
Do it all our souls to save,
He can heal my heart
Where no one else can see.
He can change my life,
And heal the doubts in me.
Of all the miracles our mighty God can do,
If you let Him, He can heal you, too!
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